I escaped to my warm room The world in my monitor’s endless
Here I am, still unsuccessful at being them Welcoming in the same exact spring as last year
How do I prove that I exist? Not knowing is torture My heart’s in distress right now
Sick of trying to act cool With no real intentions to hide at this point I chase after the words that pop up in my empty head
I’m pretty sure I’ve let go Of the moments I wanted so badly And somebody out there’s shining as they live them out
It hurts, hurts, hurts, hurts, hurts My heart, it hurts
On nights it rains and I have no umbrella I wanna know where I can run home to
I rot away and yet life marches on It’s what I chose for myself Makes me sad only I see the effort I put in
“Oh well,” I laugh to myself Meant to clean up, but it’s always there Deep down in my heart, still holding its breath
I take it out Water it again with my tears Thank it and give it a hug And from there, go on living once more
I’ve just been doing day after day of that on repeat Will there be another rerun of everything I just said next spring?
atataka na heya no naka nigekonda monita- no oku no sekai wa mugen
ano hito ni narenai mama de watashi kyonen to onaji haru wo mukaete’ru
sonzai no shoumei wo dou yatte shite ii ka wakannai ga kurushii yo ima, kono mune wa kurushii yo
kakko tsukeru no ni mo akite imasara honne mo nakutte karappo na atama ni ukanda kotoba wo oikakeru
watashi wa kitto tebanashita anna hoshikatta jikan wo dareka ga kirameite ikite’ru
itai, itai, itai, itai, itai watashi wa kokoro ga itai
ame furi, kasa no nai yoru ni kaettemo ii basho shiritai
kusattatte seikatsu wa tsudzuite’ku sore wo eranda jibun no mendou wa jibun shika mirenai noga sabishii yo
maa ikka nante waratte katazuketa tsumori de zutto kokoro no oku fukaku, iki wo hisomete mada nokotte’ru
watashi wa sore wo toridashite namida de mata mizu wo yatte arigatou tte dakishimete yaru soko kara mou ichido ikite’ku
sonna hibi kurikaeshite iku dake kono hanashi no saihousou wa mata, tsugi no haru?
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